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Between Acting and Writing

Here’s something awesome: I filmed a short last week where I got to wear an insane superhero costume and the first screenplay I finished – a comedy pilot – was selected for a Dutch screenwriting event named “Het Schrijfpaleis.” This means professional actors will perform scenes from my screenplay after which a panel of film professionals and an audience gives feedback. If you’re in the Netherlands, you can be part of the audience and come check it out tonight at 8PM. For more information go here.

All the writing I have done recently has really made me realize how healthy it is… Continue reading

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About Image & Humility

First things first: my visa application has been sent off! That means within three weeks my fate will be decided. Hopefully anyway. If there’s anything I learned from the visa process it’s that things always take longer than anticipated. Or maybe I’m overly optimistic in my planning. Either way, within the next month I will surely know a lot more about what my future looks like than I do now. In the meantime, I’ve been thinking a lot about “image.”

As you make your way in the film industry  you sometimes encounter people that make themselves seem like more than they really are. In job interviews a little exaggeration about your resume and skills is rule more than exception of course, and not necessarily a bad thing, but I’ve met people that lied to the point where they made things up completely. And it taught me something… Continue reading

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Rejection & Recession: The Financial Crisis from an Actor’s Point of View

Newsflash: there’s been this financial crisis going on in the world. A recession. I’m sure you’re aware as  not even children in the slums of India could avoid gaining this little piece of knowledge. I don’t personally join the doom and gloom apocalyptic attitude about it but I do notice its effects in my daily life. Obviously there are people losing jobs and struggling to keep businesses. However, as an actress I  can’t help but notice something that while sad, also puts things in a refreshing perspective.

My group of friends mostly consists of university graduates.  Lovely, smarty pants, double degree, cum laude graduates that I wish the world for. As I’ve gotten older, their paths have increasingly strayed from mine, until the recession put a little twist in that… Continue reading

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The Problem With Artists

The word “artist” is a weird one for me, and brings up some quite conflicting feelings. I’ve been called an artist since I was little and I would always think: “Why’d you have to go there?” Of course it was always meant as a compliment, but I hated the word, just like I once hated the word blogging. Yeah…

With the word artist I associated a self-pitying guy in skinny jeans lying on top of his paintings, tears about the suffering he endures for his art mixing with the randomly splattered paint. As if someone is forcing him to devote his life to painting. Yet a little more than a year ago, I was doing exactly what this image describes… Continue reading

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Why We Want to Become Actors Part IV: Naive/Delusional

Famewhore, attention seeker, naive/delusional, unstable, childish… If you want to go to LA to become an actor you are obviously either one or all of these things. According to those certain kinds of people you encounter in daily life anyway. And although there’s no need to justify yourself to them, I do ponder sometimes why it is we have this unwavering desire to play dress up and pretend to be somebody else. Why we voluntarily choose a life full of uncertainty, financial instability and rejection. Why Halloween or the local Theater Group on the side isn’t enough.

I watched The Silver Linings Playbook the other day and it reignited my inner discussion on what is normal and what isn’t, and how it relates to me and other actors and artists. Are we all crazy and delusional, or just hopeful? Continue reading

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Why Do We Want to Become Actors Part III: Unstable

Famewhore, attention seeker, naive/delusional, unstable, childish… If you want to go to LA to become an actor you are obviously either one or all of these things. According to those certain kinds of people you encounter in daily life anyway. And although there’s no need to justify yourself to them, I do ponder sometimes why it is we have this unwavering desire to play dress up and pretend to be somebody else. Why we voluntarily choose a life full of uncertainty, finanical instability and rejection. Why Halloween or the local Theater Group on the side isn’t enough.

Last time I delved into the attention seeking part of actors. But I actually think there is something deeper at the root of that. So I’ll use my fancy schmancy degree once more and will psycho analyze them crazy actor folk all seriously once more … Continue reading

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Why Do We Want to Become Actors Part II: Attention Seeker

Famewhore, attention seeker, naive/delusional, unstable, childish… If you want to go to LA to become an actor you are obviously either one or all of these things. According to those certain kinds of people you encounter in daily life anyway. And although there’s no need to justify yourself to them, I do ponder sometimes why it is we have this unwavering desire to play dress up and pretend to be somebody else. Why we voluntarily choose a life full of uncertainty, finanical instability and rejection. Why Halloween or the local Theater Group on the side isn’t enough.

Last week I delved into the bit more shallow and obvious concept of fame and what it meant to me and my dream of becoming an actress. This week I’ll finally somewhat use my fancy Psychology degree and analyze the “attention seeker” part  … Continue reading

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